In two weeks, the team and I will OFFICIALLY be in Haiti, diving head first into bringing these people the gospel, and clean water. Let that sink in a minute. We are leaving in TWELVE days. These days, I am just a bag of mixed emotions, excitement, anxiety, gratitude, unspeakable joy, overwhelmed with the amount of unanswered questions...you name it, and I've probably felt it in the past few days! It seems so unreal, because it was just a dream for so long, but now it's not. It's real, it's actually happening, and I'm not ready. I don't have nearly the amount of answers that I would have liked to have at this point(like what airline we're traveling...), I'm still a little over $200 short of where I need to be as far as funding goes, and I realized this morning that I forgot to get my passport when I was home this weekend...fantastic...I just feel like I have my hands in so many pots, it's only a matter of time before I get burned.
Despite all of this though, I have a weird sense of peace,(if you know me well, you know that that does NOT happen) and somehow I know everything will be okay. Over the past few days of furiously scrambling to get fully funded, the Lord has provided, again and again. He has given me a family that is so, SO supportive of this journey and can't wait to see what I learn through this, friends who would do anything and everything they can to love me and support me, and an amazing support system that will come alongside me and pray for me when I'm feeling overwhelmed. He has shown me over the past few days that this is absolutely HIS will, I am merely a vessel of his love to the people of Haiti. I have been so humbled by the generosity of people, and by the way that the Lord provided when I truly felt like there was nothing else I could do. At this point, I truly don't even know what to say, but here's what I do know, The Lord, our gracious father, will provide for our every need. Over the past few days, a scripture that has pretty consistently been on my heart is Isaiah 40:30-31, "Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." I have been reminded that when my eyes are fixed on the Lord, everything else will fall into place, and that is so, so precious! Continue praying for me, and for the team as we prepare to leave!
